Cerebral Waves

"...then life seems to be a long emergency", Sam Harris said on my screen sometime in last few months. And today I can almost 'feel' what he meant there.  (This is gonna be long, my Shiva. At this point I am not concerned what's useful for the reader and what's not. I am just gonna get it off my chest whichever way it gets expressed.) _________ 11th July 2022, evening ______ On terrace, I was trying to cover some stuff as part of my preparation for the upcoming exam after finally making myself comfortable in this new village, Rakhi, my mausi's sasural and my daada's nanihal. Sudden steps coming upstairs. It was Sunil, my mausera bhai. "Vinoda, come down. Immediately." And he ran downstairs. I thought there might be something exciting, some magic. Let's see what it is. But situation was more serious. Prahlad Kaka ( mausi's husband) and Mukesh (mausera bhai) were off to the farm. As I came downstairs, I saw my mausi (Santosh) lying alm...

Pasting from Quora. This list should never be complete and should be continually edited. _______ Gratitude is when you realize life is difficult and it seems like a long, unpredictable emergency, but despite that, there are people (around you) who care for you with zero expectations in return. There are people who don't think twice before helping you in need, though you are nearly a stranger to them at that moment.   I feel gratitude towards my maa, who has been sacrificing so much for me. Whatever sympathy/ empathy my character embodies has probably come from her.   I feel gratitude that my sisters want the best for me, almost over-protecting me sometimes.   I feel gratitude that I am alive, reasonably healthy, breathing air in this peaceful village, and have time and a mind to engage in my interests and hobbies.   I feel gratitude that people around me (and I) aren't crazy, angry, hateful, and deceitful most of the time. _/\_ VKJ)

(Pasting one of my Quora answers)   1. S/he thinks that s/he can get away with it with negligible consequences.   2. S/he is so short-sighted, being blind in sexual compulsion, that s/he isn't seeing the bigger picture of what s/he is doing. (It's often 'he'.)   A nonlinear combination of these two leads to an atrocity of rape or sexual harassment. Reason #2 is especially true in cases where one regrets one's act (minutes after the crime) when one faces society or realizes what devastating impact it had on the victim.   Looking back, I could see a part of me that might have been tempted to do something that can be called sexual harassment. But I decided to experiment with things with myself instead of messing with other bodies. But now I am out of that zone. I know I can control it & I can wait. I might even be able to saturate it within myself until my death if time demands.   Now, my experiments have turned more psychological in nature. Y...