Cerebral Waves

You are in a real hurry for whatever reason. But you also gotta pee. You walk towards the place. And in a hurry, you're taking the thing out & something down there hurts. Sucks like nothing else. Got it? No... Sometimes, some live pubic hair ( a bit longer ones) get trapped under your foreskin (s omehow) & they rest there in the contracted state of the system. Now, you're taking the system out in haste. And these thin threads of keratin ( hair) rub against your softness. It should hurt…. & It does. You realize this within milliseconds and then slide the entire foreskin backward & liberate the poor guys. Only now can you release the chemicals. And all this jaddojahad takes 2 seconds extra…which you definitely don't like. One more thing that sucks about being born like this is you need to adjust the thing in different orientations at different instants of time, especially when u sit in one posture for long hrs. At any time, it can say, “Let me rest on the lef...

I see myself changing my opinions about the same things many many times over the years. That's why , perhaps, I never hold strong opinions on anything. Talking to my friends, teachers here & people at the village I see the following ones as somewhat unpopular. Will try to add more when comes to mind. • I used to believe, human sex too has very little to do with emotional & psychological side of the being like any other mammal. It's fundamentally just physical. Most people are just under cultural/ social pressure when they don't admit pure anamalistic/ wild nature of human sexual desire.  But no, my opinions have changed. I don't think you can divorce the sexual encounters from the humanity, emotions and feelings of your partner. He/she isn't like a sweet that your tongue can have taste of whichever way you like. There comes the 'humane' part of our seemingly anamalistic sexuality. Your sexual partner (given that he/she has gone intimate with you to t...

This one is about the brokers & flat owners there. Summers 2018. Meetesh and I needed a place to stay during summer vacations as we had joined a coaching for JAM. Our PG closed its mess until 19th July and was charging much higher for the damn June & July. We decided to go for a flat or a room thinking we could manage with tiffin food. Ended up talking to a nearby broker. Neither liked the room that he showed nor agreed on the monthly rent. He offered with 1 or 2 more options. I politely disagreed each time, “ Nhi Lena sir , itna mahanga.” Now suddenly, this guy offered ( atleast in 'talk') me a room in his own house at Model Town at much cheaper monthly rent, food and also promised to drop me at coaching in GTB Nagar daily! And it was becoming difficult to stop him. First I was puzzled. Then I got a glimpse of my future with him & a picture emerged. So this was it. This could have become the darkest side of Delhi in my graduation . I found myself somewhat angry aft...

Not an expert but answering to the best of my knowledge, experience and understanding. ( So correct me.) Most men who believe they ejaculate premature, aren't suffering from clinical premature ejaculation . Yes, if you last one minute+, it's not premature ejaculation and can easily be extended upto 10+ minutes or even an hour by little bit of psychological training and lo wering the excitement level. Give up the idea ( and the parallel imagination) that things should go the way they go in porn. Coz porn is a fake world but you are real , your penis is real ( just check!). Do you drink water imagining how beautifully somebody else drank special kind of water in style from a golden glass on the other day (in a movie)? No. When you are thirsty and water is available, you just drink it gracefully. For the pleasure of it, you don't drink it too fast for it might spill all over or go down your arteria to chock the respiratory inlet. Body has enough inbuilt understanding ...

It's not anymore. If 2 out of 100 people consciously take up brahmacharya , I could still call it common. But probably 2 in 5000 people here live brahmacharya in my rough estimation ( correct me). To be frank, we don't have much of social support & acceptance left for brahmacharis. And I find it quite hypocritical. People worship Mahavira , dedicate bhajans to him, talk about his life in sathsangs for what he was. But they don't want their child to become a Mahavira . They want to marry them to a right match at right place on time … to ensure the security & stability of their future. I tend to assume that the few brahmacharis that have happened in this generation, ( majority of them ) were strong/ rebel enough to go against their parents' & social norms & expectations and left the family/ village to join some spiritual organisation. Within the family/ village I don't see much of possibility for them. I don't know much about the environment in...

The problem lies in you trying to control them. Oh bhaai, erections are something that happen to a man, everybody knows. Nothing to feel embarrassed here. Nothing to be ashamed of. Even if anybody notices your random / casual erection, I hope they aren't aliens and they know it's ‘just an erection'. Erection can happen to a regular man (not talking about sages!) anywhere at any time. It just needs one mental visual out of your memory and imagination, just one moment, which isn't 100% in your control. What's in your control: To sustain (or intensify) the erection or not. If it's unwanted erection, notice it & just forget about it. It will die down its natural death within seconds. Yeah, don't worry about people noticing it. The more you pay attention to the erection & sensation, the more excitement it will build up which is totally unwanted. A tip here: If you fail to calm it down (perhaps coz you kept imagining something or kept paying attention to t...

In my case, I think, it was the college. College has made me a lot more extrovert than I was during my senior secondary. In my sr secondary school we didn't have many opportunities to converse with girls or people from very different background. The people in my life were largely northern Rajasthani boys. In college, initially my interest in sciences and then in politics, music, others’ culture, rural women's issues and spirituality made me converse with the people that I never had courage to talk to otherwise. I developed this thing of debating in open (with whoever in my friend circle I found was free) on variety of issues, theories, philosophies, ideologies & lifestyles. I love it when something that I considered strong, true or good is broken with arguments by the person in front. And in parallel, I see, all this revealed some tiny secrets of mine to the people in my circle & I no more was worried about small things about me going public or people labeling me as cer...

I want you to imagine yourself as an amateur singer, practising in your bedroom the new lyrics that happened to you just yesternight… OR as an entrepreneur making plans for the new start-up that you and 4 of your friends have decided to jump into, after much thought, discussion and research… OR as a farmer feeding your bull/ camel and buffaloes in the evenings after returning from your farms … OR as a scientist sitting in your lab trying to estimate the damage to ecosystems due to climate change, pollution and dense human footprint… Suddenly you hear a loud noise outside, a disturbing one: loud voices, abusive words, … sounds like a horrible clash between 2 groups,…painful cries… and oh no! This one voice is of your brother's. But how can he be .. ? No. Le t me go and … * The gate is blown open and a crowd is approaching you by then.* You can hardly see , listen or think anything with clarity… Here is a little more real thing from your regular life: Your mother or brother or your...